while the iron is hot in 2019

12:30pm

I started an entry yesterday afternoon [which was restored! cool!] but basically all it says is that I was tired of taking classes and needed a very long extended break. I didn’t get much further than that since I was ready to go home and only had an hour left. I figured I wasn’t going to get on the computer at home either and I was right. I ended up watching my trashy television guilty pleasure [90 day fiancé] and then some LivePD and went to bed. It’s only day 3 and already this new schedule is kicking my butt.

I’m not sure how people do this all the time. Day in and day out. I’m not even sure how I used to manage it! I guess I did nap a lot in the afternoons. hah. I always think about going back to a regular job, I’d certainly make a lot more money and this isn’t where I ever thought I’d end up, but I am really not sure I could ever handle that type of schedule again. Right now I work like crazy for a few months and then I do whatever the heck I want.

This time of year always inspires me to do all the things but by May I’m usually so burnt out that all I want to do is sit on my couch and watch terrible TV. I think what I need to do this year is to plan every thing while I have the motivation. If I set it all up now while I’m inspired then I am certainly not going to want that money to go to waste. I’m too cheap for that! I’ll have to use my frugal nature against myself! =P

I want to at least: 1) go to Napa for a hot air balloon ride
2) check more states off the bucketlist
3) visit Cancun again
4) finally get a tattoo

Speaking of which, I’ve been thinking about this tattoo a lot lately. I get really into it every now and again but never pull the trigger. Mostly I can’t decide what I want permanently inked on my body. I don’t want to regret it! But I’ve been stuck on this one design for a while now and I think that’s what I’m going to do this year. I’ve already researched shops and found a pretty good one. I’m not 100% set on the design because the artist will have to help me transfer it out of my head. Basically it’ll be a religious piece: the immaculate heart of Mary with the seven sorrows in the form of swords. It’s hard to describe. I want the heart to be more of an anatomical version though, not a cutesy heart. And I’m not sure the swords will fit in the location I want [upper thigh]. I have to be able to cover it up still. Plus it’s definitely more for me [in design and what it represents] and less for the world to see. I’d love to throw in the North Star and a rose but again not sure it’ll fit.

I’ve been thinking about that piece for a couple years now and I’m still excited about it so I don’t think it’ll be a regret. Doesn’t hurt to at least talk to an artist about it. We’ll see if I can pull that trigger this year. haha.

And now that I glanced back at my list [which apparently hasn’t been updated] I might actually be able to do a lot of things on there. They’re all pretty simple as long as I make the time. Like go fishing, to the opera, or watch a live hockey game? Super easy! I could do all three of those in the same week! I have no idea why I’ve been procrastinating on it for so long. Letting life get in the way I guess. shrug

We’ll see how it goes, but if I don’t seriously make a dent on that thing I’m probably never going to get it all done. Could this be why settling down wasn’t yet an option for me?

I want to do it all and document it all. I have to stop waiting for something that’s not going to come.

So yeah, I keep starting these with the intention of writing about my New Years, which was amazing!, but then I go off on a tangent and write too much about other things. hah.

I’ve got a few more hours here at work and I’ve checked about half of the things off my ongoing to-do list. Maybe I’ll go update my bucket list and then come back with the New Year’s story. It’s not all that exciting. It was just a really, really good night for me.

rose.
1:53pm