2018 in Journal

i can’t explain this feeling. it’s a million emotions at once. joy, ecstacy, love. i think it’s love. the lightness in the chest, the lack of air. i can feel the hormones releasing into my bloodstream, melting my limbs into the mattress. euphoria. it’s euphoria, like I’m floating.

this year has been… amazing. i learnt so much about myself i did not know i had. an awakening that wasn’t possible without the guidance of my therapist and the unconditional support of my friends and loved ones. i learnt resilience, inmer beauty, self love, dedication. I’m at a distinction level GPA for fucks sake, when last year i was on my second warning and being threatened of getting kicked out of uni altogether. i persevered through physical and mental pain and got my shit together. i learnt how to listen and how to back off, be independent and allow others to have their own freedom. i learnt patience, love… and it paid off. everything worked the fuck out because i didn’t force it. i did the best i could and let it come naturally. and most… i learnt not to fear the unknown. who fucking knows what’s next. but i can deal with it. whatever the fuck it is.

i feel empowered and strong and loved. i feel unstoppable. this year was my fucking year man.

bring on 2019.

Last updated December 21, 2018