virgo in formless

Hi I am alive
and OK I guess

I am a month and a half into grad school
and it has awakened my soul
and also pushed me to limits I didn’t even know I had

I don’t have time to write right now but here I am
because finally I have something worth saying

I feel so young and immature a lot of the time
but all of a sudden there is this ticking clock

25 is that milestone where things start to change direction
am I going to get married, put money in a 401 k, have kids? a house?

When I finish school I will be 28, bf will be 32
I barely have time to eat outside of school let alone work
so
I am in loan city

I feel so self conscious all the time
I am never happy with what I’ve done
and everyone is watching me, pointing out my mistakes