Knowing in Day to Day

I’m about 2 days away from my birthday and I don’t feel any of the usual grief I have for many years. Especially since I am entering a new form category. (30-44, 45-60, etc.) I should be wallowing hard. Especially since I fucked up at work last week. But I don’t feel bad at all. Just mild and hopeful that the next year will be good.

This tells me I am definitely picking up on something outside of myself. Thanks.