Well it's not raining anymore. I swear, only in Cali is it 40 degrees and raining one day and then 85 degrees and sunny the next..lame.
Yesterday was Margot's birthday and me, her, mike, cheif(mike), chris(lurptard), derek, and randy all went to Hooter's. It was pretty fun but jeez the food is so expensive there! After that we went to Del Taco cuz like half of the ppl there didnt get food cuz it was so expensive lol. Everyone was like pressuring Cheif(mike) to "make a move" on me and all that stupid stuff. Lately Ive been thinking alot about if I would want to be with him or not. When we were at the beach and holding hands walking along the shoreline it was soo cute and I thought maybe I did want to be with him. But I don't really think I like him that way. And I don't want to rush into a relationship just because I want a boyfriend. Especially since I like so many other guys and I don't want to hurt the poor guy. He's really nice and all, he's just kinda weird. And not really my type. I want a guy to be in control you know? Cheif just isn't that way. He's more reserved and quiet, a keep-to-himself type of guy.
I'm a really flirty girl. It seems more so, when I'm around Randy and Mike and Cheif and Derek and ALL them. I don't mean to lead any of them on. I just like to flirt. It's just something to do I guess. At first Derek didn't seem to like me at all and told Margot I was "attention needy" So I was all mad at him. But yesterday we really got to know eachother and he's suchhh a cool guy. He's not that cute or ne thing and hes definitly not the in-control-type guy. BUT he seems really funny and nice. I was confused yesterday and hoping I wasn't falling for him! I seriously dont get myself sometimes. One day I'll like so and so, the next him, the next Bob, the next Billy. Etc Etc. Its just like UGH STOP NATALIE!! JUST LIKE ONE FRIKIN GUY! but i cant! Margot thinks it's cuz im afaird of getting hurt. So I latch onto numerous amounts of guys so if one hurts me, its not a big deal cuz i still have all the other guys on my list. And she does make a point, maybe she's right idk.
One thing I do know tho is, I still like Chris ALOT. hahah yesterday he was like "I dont mean to sound dumb but Ill get with you if I find out my girlfriend cheats on me" I was like ommmmmmmg hahha i hope she does! god im such a bitch.
BUT ANYHOO.... im still sick. I still havent found out of I got the bagelry job. UGH its so frustrating they keep telling me to call them back this day, then the next day and now its friday at noon. THEY BETTER frikin tell me if I got the job or not and I BETTER have gotten it lol ive waited long enough.
Things between me and Craig finally seem to be ok. He sent me a message on MySpace and I can tell he was pretty mad at me for ignoring him for so long. BUT I just had to make sure our friendship meant enough to him for me to keep it. I really dont want to be friends with someone that doesnt really want to be friends with me. But it looks like maybe he does care. Maybe he does want to be my friend. He said he was annoyed at me. But I dont blame him. Im annoyed at myself 24/7...
Today I was supposed to go to Scotti's but I cant because I have all this homework to do, chiropractor, etc etc. So hopefully she can visit sometime this weekend or something. Ok well toodles journal, just had to update ya.
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