6/15/04: Shasta and Cookies in Victim of Society

im so sick of like having to always be drunk or high with my friends to have fun. like thats seriously all they want to do. for 3 days in a row all we did was smoke out. and then today i went over to clairs and they were high again. they were like "natalie dont worry we saved sum for u" and i was like "omg thats not the point guys, dont u think u guys are becoming um kinda obsessed?" I know for a fact heather is. she ALWAYS "HAS" to have "shasta" aka weed. its soo annoying. like thats seriously the only thing always on her mind. i know shes not addicted, shes just OBSESSED. and then if we dont have that its like "oh we need "cookies" aka alcohol". this is the reason i want to move away from here. not just away from bonita but away from all the drugs and alcohol. ugh its soo annoying. and then its not like i can go to evergreen and hang out with all of those guys because there high and drunk as much as heather and them are. i just am so sick of everyone and everything here in la verne. thats why i wish scotti would come down and stay with me for awhile because i know i will stay away from all that stuff and me and her can hang out and have fun without all that fucking shit. and gen like never hangs out with me ne more. and it sux because i cant really drive ppl around much since im not supposed to at all so we never have ne where to go or ne thing to do. and its not like i cant just go out and start hanging out with new ppl around here because there is seriously no ppl thatd id actually want to hang out with around here. i cant wait for skool to get out, but then again im scared. what the fuk am i supposed to do all summer long? i fucking hope i get a job. i need to stay away from all this shit its really starting to fuckin irritate the hell out of me. and like usually id just go hang out with andrea and stuff and we used to always have fun without drugs or alcohol but shes like changed. her life revolves around jon now. heathers life revolves around weed. jamies life revolves around sharon and the rest of evergreen. and im just like..idk annoyed at everything. i need a vacation far away from here for like a fucking month or sumthing. :-(