5/19/04: David in Victim of Society

Ok so I have talked about David quite alot in this journal but so many things are going on involving him right now. First of all, when we were talking last night he was telling me that he told one of his friends about me and that his friend thinks im cute...and so then somehow it got to me and david like saying all these sexual things to eachother. And then David goes.."so do u think ud want to actually do this stuff with me?" and this kinda shocked me cuz i thought David was one of those total gentlemen type guys-fuck was i wrong. So i didnt really know how to respond so in the end we agreed on being friends with benefits. Well today I was talking to Gen about it because she was the one who introduced me to david. And then it totally hit me-o my god wat if gen likes david-so i immediately asked her and she was like YES! and i was like FUCK dude.....so i felt really bad and told her i wouldnt do anything with him. And she was like no go ahead he likes u not me..and i was like no he doesnt like me he wants to fucking use me like all the guys do. And she was just like watever..........then i was talking to david and he was seriously being like really conceited. he was telling me not to call him alot after we "do stuff" because he doesnt want me to become all stalkerish...(ok who said i even liked him that much ne waz?!! why the fuk would i become stalkerish?) So yea that kinda pissed me off. Then he was telling me that i should go behind gens back and go with him to this party friday and i told him i couldnt do that and he was like "god i didnt think u would let it go just because u found out gen liked me" WTF thats so fucked of him..i swear..why are guys like that!?!? And I fucking wanted to go to Hooters with drea and scotti and richard but no ..rite when the day is almost here scotti has to drop the plans and doesnt even care..so whatever...i guess that fun nite is ruined and in the end ill probably be a stupid fuck and go to the dumb party with david and probably get used again..wow story of my fucking life....