we already knew in 2018
- May 2, 2018, 1:43 a.m.
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10:18pm
He didn’t show.
I know, I know we’re not surprised.
And damnit I know I said I wasn’t getting my hopes up but ugh I lied alright!!! I couldn’t help myself. It just seemed like it was going to work out in some crazy way. Stupid I know. I freaken know everything.
I’m just easy to fool. I’m gullible. I still think people say what they mean even though I seriously should have learned my lesson last year. I keep saying I’m going to move on from this. I say I’m not going to get attached. I say I’m smarter now. I’m not naive anymore.
But who the hell am I kidding? Clearly only myself because I am still all of those things. I still feel all of those things.
So whatever. No message and no show up. He’ll have a great excuse if he ever gets in touch.
I’m over it. I don’t need a response. It’s probably better if I don’t get one so I don’t get all attached again.
I freaken knew it wasn’t anything. It won’t be anything. But damn I wanted it to mean something. I have no idea why. I don’t understand any of it. I guess I’m not supposed to understand. It’s just hard to let go of.
I don’t meet people like that. I don’t get along with people that way. I shouldn’t have crossed that line, I know, but it felt so nice.
I’ll do better next time. I swear I’ll do better.
rose.
10:38pm
caramelchicken ⋅ May 02, 2018
If he's older than you it's possible that he enjoys some harmless flirting, but when it comes down to it will maintain enough boundaries to prevent anything more from happening. Maybe you could join some sort of hobby group if you want to try and meet some other men?