Slipping a Little in Struggles with Addiction & Depression

I’ve fallen behind in my writing and schoolwork a little bit but I have to give myself a little leeway; so long as I get properly back on course I can’t say I have been wasting time.

When I’m not trying to rebuild my broken family I’m working late hours at the office or arguing about the fallout from Mexico. In my off hours I have been cleaning and rearranging my apartment because it really had started to fall apart in here a bit over the past year. The external always reflects the internal so now that I feel more collected and under control I need my environment to reflect that.

Trouble is I’m still a slow mover and a big fan of sleeping in.

But I’ve bought a giant bag of coffee, set a daily alarm and a resolution to wake up and write every morning, even if only privately. Still on Lexapro and still glad about it.

I’m about a week behind on school but I think I might try to take the day to make it up. I’m expected to be in for more bookkeeping and arguments over the weekend anyhow and Kendra has a fundraiser for her school tonight that I want to help with.

That aspect of my life has also been nice though it would be hard to blame any of my procrastinating on spending time with her as she is so swamped between work and school. We see each other whenever we can - usually I’ll come over in the evening with some food while she is studying and we’ll eat and watch bad TV and talk - but those short hours are my favourite of the day by far.