2/21/04 in Victim of Society

Tonight was kinda weird. I was having a good time hanging out with Gil and then we went over to Justin's and Justin seemed like mad at me. So I asked him about it and he told me Margot told him I was talking shit about him. Stupid Margot I swear...but anyways I felt pretty bad about that but we cleared things up. Then the subject of guys liking me came up. They started telling me about how almost all the guys in the group have liked me and I was just like YEAH RIGHT SHUT UP. Then they started talking about Daniel. And I was like yeah Daniel and Scott where the only ones that liked me because I went out with them both. And then Justin was like Daniel never liked you Natalie. Then for some reason I started crying. I was like "then why did he go out with me?" and Justin was like ohh yea nevermind he did like you and I was like "no u just said he didnt so he didnt huh tell me the truth." So I don't know now. What if Daniel really never liked me? Why do I even care if I hate him so much? Ugh...it's all too confusing for me. Oh well. I'm past all that...right? Also today I went over to hug my old friends because I was in a happy mood and they were standing by me and they looked at me like wtf? Then they asked me if i was drunk or drinking. Ugh. That is seriously starting to piss me off. Ever since I started hanging out with Andrea and all them they all suddenly think im this huge alcoholic. So I confronted them about it. I was like Do u guys really think I'm such a big drunk or sumthing? and they were like um no but it seems like it sumtimes. I duno it just sorta made me sad. And how everyone always assumes just because it's Friday night must mean I'm out getting drunk. I mean yeah I do get drunk every now and then but that doesn't mean I do it all the time u know? Yeah well I think I've type enough for today...so tata journal!