I am back. in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

I guess it’s been kind of a while since I have written in here…and truth be told, the only reason I’m even back is because my friend Zane challenged me to do a journal entry tonight.
I told him I would.
I try to do what I say.

Anyway…about my life.

Well, it’s kind of been all-consumed by the trial for my infant nephew’s murder.
It’s been really rough.
My family has gone through a lot of ups and downs.

I’m pretty sure a lot of my family has been scarred for life by some of the autopsy pictures.

My mom has even said that this has aged her.

It’s aged all of us.

My sister’s one and a half year old, beautiful, baby boy.

…

…anyway, the woman who murdered my nephew, was found “not guilty” on all charges…so she is walking free right now.

So that’s a real thing.

And…I know it’s a real thing…but I can’t understand or accept it.

They have a confession on tape.
I mean…

…you know, I was going to write more about it and I’m just not going to.

I’m just sick to my stomach about the entire thing.

I’ve completely lost my appetite.

You know, I’m not sure that journaling was actually a good idea right now. I don’t think there’s a whole lot I can say that’s very positive or makes me feel better.

Sorry.

I love you.

• Dane