Back To Reality in Finding Me

Tomorrow begins another work week after 3 days off. My usual weekends are monday’s and tuesday’s, but I had sunday off as well due to a wedding. I work doubles five days a week. I’ve been working there for 4 years. The job is easy, but I get pretty exhausted. I don’t think they understand why, which is frustrating.

Usually every week I have something to look forward to, which makes it easier to get through it. But this time I don’t, and that hasn’t happened in a while. I think that may be why I’m still stuck in the mental state that I am.

On a brighter note, my brother got a new kitten. I’ve been over at my dad’s for the last couple of hours playing with him. His name is Meatloaf. (I know. Awful.) Chicken is the older one, but she’s still a baby as well, not even a year old. She doesn’t really like him too much, but we’re hoping that’ll change soon. I don’t want to go back to my apartment yet, so I’m using the kittens as an excuse.

I kind of just want to drive around for the next couple of hours and look at Christmas lights. I love them. They make me happy. And driving in general usually helps a lot. I’ve been pretty much avoiding sleep lately. On November 25th 2011, I experienced an event that caused me to have nightmares every night. They can be about anything. So around this time every year they get a little worse. I’m thinking they’ll go back to normal in about a week.

I feel like this entry was pretty random and useless, but I’m going to try to make one every night. I know these first three have been pretty depressing and low, but I promise I’m not always that way. The good days will be there. I’m waiting for them too.

Last updated November 28, 2017