In my head in My life with Darius

Great, so in taking steps to be the wife he wants, I now have to show him, I am trying. So this afternoon he asked me if I wanted to go out. I didn’t but I hesitated in providing a response because the last thing I wanted to do was start a new lecture. I said No and he said why. I explained I wasn’t in the mood, to go out and he states that’s not a reason. I just stared at him. This is when he says in changing your mind set you have to change how you’re looking at doing the change. There is a difference between I’m cutting my finger off because I’m told to and I’m cutting my fingers off because they’re gangrene. Gangrene of course is my hatred for him, this house, this life. So anyhow we are going out tonight, god help me. He also asked me what is my favorite sexual position. I said doggy style and he asked if it was because I didn’t want to look at him, I didn’t answer. He says I answer questions as if I think if I think everything I say will be used against me, in truth it is.