9:30pm
Well, this isn’t good.
I’m suddenly stuck in one of those situations in life that I absolutely dread.
Damn it. Damn. Damn. Damn.
I just found this message on fb: That’s alright I’m glad we are able to catch up now and no, didn’t receive any letters (thankfully) lol. I know this is bold but I am actually wondering if you would like to have dinner with me one night?
-_-
WHY?!?
What the hell is the universe trying to do to me? Seriously. Now? You really think this is a good idea right now, world? ugh
I don’t know what to do now? That is so not where I saw that going at all! If I had, I probably would have avoided a lot longer!
Let me explain: I got on fb this afternoon and sorted things out to add these new people. One of them was my neighbor [no big deal. I doubt she even uses it much and I have her kids on there already] and the other was that client I mentioned in the other entry. I added them both and then made sure to block them from anything I deemed “inappropriate”. Mostly pictures and a few choice statuses. It’s not that complicated since I don’t really post all that much on there anyway. I update like once a month, or less. Probably a lot less actually.
So I did all that and then I figured I should answer his message. In hindsight I should have left it in that message request folder forever. And I would have totally done that if I’d known it was going to lead to this. I’m not opposed to avoiding. We all know this. But I wanted to make sure it wasn’t work related since he had mentioned stopping by the office and not finding us.
I wrote back and said sorry for not seeing it sooner, that it had been filtered into that secret hidden folder and that I wasn’t very good at the fb thing. I mentioned having worked yesterday and being open Wednesdays and asked if he’d gotten a letter or something.
Then about an hour later I got the above message, which I just found. =(
I’m sad about this. For so many reasons. Like why the hell can’t that be someone I want [like the Sheriff!] and not some random client that I barely know? This is going to throw my whole world into a spin.
I know I’m not interested in that way. Also, I thought he had a freaken girlfriend!! The breakup has to be pretty recent because definitely as of April they were together, probably even after that when I spotted stuff on fb. So I have no idea what could have happened there.
Why me? Why now? Why make things weird? If he wouldn’t have specifically said “I know this is bold” then I wouldn’t have thought so much about it. I wouldn’t mind hanging out with him. I wouldn’t mind getting to know him. I could use new friends and I know we have stuff in common. He could totally fill my need to have a camping/outdoorsy kinda buddy!
But now? What the heck do I do now?! Because those words definitely make it sound like he wants more than a friend thing and I’m not into that. Unfortunately. I feel bad about it. I feel like I have every other time I’ve been put into a situation like this. Not good…
All I can think about now is how I can respond. I can’t avoid it anymore. He’ll know I saw it. If I was worried about it being awkward before, it’ll only be worse now.
Do I let him down gently? Do I lie and say I’m involved with someone? That feels like it’ll give me bad karma. I’m all about being upfront with people but I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. Do I accept and go to dinner, but make it very clear that I’m not interested in being more than friends? Do I wing it and see what happens?
Talk about a plot twist....I was totally kidding the other day!
Here I was all quietly b*tching about waking up early to paint and about how the Sheriff doesn’t get back to me and now I have to find a very nice way to tell this guy that it’s never going to happen.
Yes, world, I am open to the possibilities but seriously? When you know, you know. There’s nothing I can do about that…
rose.
9:51pm
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