Rainy Days and Mondays in Day by Day

  • June 5, 2017, 12:36 p.m.
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There’s not a lot going on these days. I suppose, after all the deaths, that is a good thing! I’m working on some magazine articles, selling stuff on ebay (3 sales, so far), keeping up with the non-profit, and generally just keeping the home fires burning.

We’ve had quite a bit of rain lately, which was sorely needed and will lower fire danger, so I’m trying not to complain. These dull, dreary days make me sleepy, though! Our garden is done until next fall (the summer sun just burns up anything we try to plant) but the rain will continue to plump up the pineapples that have popped up out front.

Both sisters-in-law continue to turn to me, hoping that I can explain what just happened, not realizing (because no one mentions his name anymore) that Nick’s 34th birthday would have been in 2 weeks. Everyone wants me to be a great sage, not realizing how deep the cut goes. No point in saying anything, though. They only rush in with empty platitudes, trying to fill a void that cannot be filled. I don’t know which is worse, enduring unhelpful words so that I don’t hurt feelings, or going it alone and just not saying anything.

Youngest son was going to Budapest next week, but cancelled to chase a big project in the middle of the state. Eldest son and his girl are going to China, of all places. I was surprised, since they’d never mentioned that country before, but he said the tour was only $1200 per person and that’s as affordable as it gets, so they’re going! The October trip to New England is still on and then eldest and g/f are going to Iceland in late October/early November.

The job on the other coast is at a standstill until more materials are shipped. These GCs always try to save money by ordering materials on their own but they always under-order (and then try to make it on us by saying, “oh, we didn’t know you’d get done so fast”), which causes extra trips for us. The next big job will be building a Mikvah (a ceremonial bath for spiritual cleansing) inside a synagogue.

I guess that’s it. I don’t have that much to say but felt I should post SOMETHING.


GypsyWynd June 05, 2017

Please send some rain. Every day there is rain all around us, but we get nary a drop.
I guess ppl don't mention Nick because they're afraid it will hurt you to remember. As if you could forget even if you wanted to (which I'm sure you don't).
Mom and I talk about Dad a lot, but my brother never mentions him, nor does he join in when we're talking about him. I don't think he's forgotten Dad, it's just his way.

ConnieK GypsyWynd ⋅ June 05, 2017

Oh, and we figured you were getting flooded! We have rain forecasted all week.

Ferret Mom June 05, 2017

I'm sorry about how things are going.

ConnieK Ferret Mom ⋅ June 05, 2017

Thanks. The past two years have been rough.

Chic Chat June 05, 2017

The adventures of your children sound exciting. I hope they have a great time.

Rain is always needed but it does dampen the mood.

ConnieK Chic Chat ⋅ June 05, 2017

I think the Millennials and Gen Xers get it right: less focus on possessions, more focus on experiences.

Chic Chat ConnieK ⋅ June 06, 2017

Yes! Traveling is way more meaningful to me than any 'stuff' I have or could have. I haven't been anywhere crazy, but in time.

QueenSuzu June 05, 2017

It has been raining a lot here as well and I am tired of it altho it was needed. Perhaps if you initiate conversations about nick people will start to realize that it is ok for you and them to talk about nick. Exciting trips coming up for your family and I am anxious to hear all about them.

ConnieK QueenSuzu ⋅ June 05, 2017

No. When I bring up Nick's name, the room goes silent and that cuts even deeper. I just no longer mention him that often.

QueenSuzu ConnieK ⋅ June 05, 2017

That is so sad that you are faced with that. I would think that since you are willing to bring his name up, that would make them feel comfortable to talk about him too. I am sorry that they will not reciprocate. Feel free to talk about him here, I always like your nick stories.

ConnieK QueenSuzu ⋅ June 05, 2017

Thanks, Suzu. This is my place for speaking his name freely.

a mote, floating June 05, 2017

(((Hugs))) I'm thankful you are here, and thankful for your stories.

ConnieK a mote, floating ⋅ June 05, 2017

[Hugsyaback] I'm very grateful for this place and for people like you.

Marg June 06, 2017

That must hurt to receive that sort of reception - I'm glad you're able to talk about him freely in here.

ConnieK Marg ⋅ June 06, 2017

I'm glad for that, too!

Eriu June 06, 2017

Happy Birthday to Nick! We don't want our loved ones gone but it is a blessing to know they were spared from worse suffering; being in the hospital made me understand my brother better, and he was still working when he died, spared from the phase of ALS in which only his mind worked.

ConnieK Eriu ⋅ June 06, 2017

ALS took my brother-in-law's life. The loss of mobility is heartbreaking.

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