Is there hope... in No light and the end of the tunnel

I’m pretty new at this, but they told me I need to talk to someone so instead of talking I’m going to write it all down and share it with the world
So… Basically why I need to write is because I’m a victim of the terrorist attack in zaventem Belgium. I was exactly 1m away from the 2 bombs and had some damage to the lungs (badly burned) and my nerve in my left ear. Some burns and metal that ended up in my body.
Now 1 year later I’m still recovering from that. Now my knee is badly infected from the metal that’s still in there. So I need to undergo another surgery on the 25th of April. Now to be honest I’m really scared because I already went true so many operations. Now another one…
It just doesn’t stop, I feel like there is no ending to the suffering and I just can’t do it anymore. It’s to hard.
I can’t talk about it because nobody understands or they just don’t care. I feel alone in the world… I was never like this. I was always the positive girl and now it’s like a total different me. Everybody’s telling me where is the old..... You. I honestly can’t say I don’t feel like me anymore I feel dead inside. Like nothing matters anymore. There is no light at the end of the tunnel only more darkness and that’s what scares me. I can’t handle it anymore… I’m handling it all alone…