NOTHING BUT THE SAME in THOUGHTS

I STILL HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING.
I STILL AM NOT USE TO LIVING ALONE.
IT’S SUPPOSE TO GET EASIER.
I’M WAITING............................
FOR SOMEONE WHO LOVED BEING ALONE AND DOING THINGS ALONE I CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY I AM HAVING SO MUCH TROUBLE ADAPTING TO BEING ALONE.
I KEEP THINKING THAT I WANT TO MOVE INTO A SMALLER PLACE - MAYBE A SENIOR RESIDENCE. I WENT TO SEE ONE TODAY BUT IT DEFINITELY WASN’T FOR ME.
I AM HAVING TROUBLE FILLING MY DAYS. HOWEVER I DON’T WANT TO CALL FRIENDS AND MAKE PLANS. I AM BECOMING A LONER FOR BETTER OR WORSE.
IT’S PASSOVER TOMORROW AND I AM PLANNING NOTHING. I AM GOING TO MY SON FOR THE TWO SEDERS. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO INTEREST.
THIS MORNING I MET A WOMAN IN THE GARAGE WHO FEELS LIKE I DO. I WILL MAKE PLANS TO GET TOGETHER WITH HER. SHE LIKES TO READ. MAYBE WE WILL START A BOOK CLUB IN THE BUILDING. SHE SAID THAT SHE ALSO LOST ANY INTEREST IN THE HOLIDAYS!!!!! IT DOESN’T BRING HER ANY JOY LIKE IT USE TO. I FEEL THE SAME.
I HAVE BEEN CLEANING OUT STUFF. I WISH MY DAUGHTER WOULD COME AND GET WHAT SHE WANTS. SHE DOESN’T LIVE IN THE SAME CITY SO SHE HASN’T COME YET. WHEN I GO IN A FEW WEEKS. I WILL BRING HER SOME STUFF. MY COUSIN GAVE ME AN IDEA THAT I SHOULD GIBVE BOTTLES OF LIQUOR AS PRESENTS. I THINK I’LL DO THAT!
I HOPE MY ATTITUDE CHANGES. I KNOW IT IS UP TO ME. I DON’T KNOW WHY I FEELSO DOWN. I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT. PART OF THE PROBLEM IS I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO. I HAVE SO MANY HOBBIES HERE BUT ALL I DO IS NAP WATCH TV AND STAY ONLINE. I WAS THINKING OF TAKING SOME COURSES BUT I DIDN’T REGISTER YET. I DON’T KNOW IF I WANT TO BE BUSY. OY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!