Fuck it all in Useless

So I guess I’m supposed to be the one that ALWAYS starts things off, always remember what’s going on. And if for some reason I end up not doing things on her schedule, I get attacked and screamed at. Only to then be accused of starting a fight because I defend myself. How the fuck does that work. Sorry. I forget things when we are high. I tried to make it a good night. I tried to give her a reason to love me(which I clearly fail at) One of these days she will go to yell and scream at me only to realize that she is screaming at a headstone. It kills me more and more and more. And funny thing is, she wasn’t upset until after I was unable to finish in bed. I know I’m a useless lame. But at least I tried. Soon, the pain will fade