Missing my grandparents. in Pridesafiordilabbra

Been thinking of my memere and pepere. And grandma and grandpa lately. I miss seeing them. Talking to them.

Doesn’t help the one year anniversary of a friends suicide was the 15th. I wish she had talked to me before hanging herself. Some days I wish I was in a psych ward for a while. But having been to all the local places it brings up major ptsd issues that makes things worse. As it’s all smell.

I’m heading back home in 40 days. I love winter in Florida. I miss my horses still in Maine. Along with my great dane bella.

February is always my worst month.