MISERABLE in THOUGHTS

I AM VERY MISERABLE TODAY. I SPENT THE DAY ALONE. MAYBE I SHOULDN’T HAVE BUT I JUST DIDN’T GET UP ENOUGH ENERGY TO GO OUT.
MY BROTHER-IN-LAW DIED IN TORONTO LAST WEEK. I WENT TO TORONTO FOR A FEW DAYS TO BE WITH MY SISTER IN LAW. POOR THING! THIS YEAR SHE LOST HER TWO YOUNGER BROTHERS AND NOW HER HUSBAND.
I AM PACKING TO GO HOME ON SAturday.I DON’T KNOW WHY I CAN’T GET OUT OF THIS SLUMP. ALL I DO IS CRY.
I SPENT THE DAY PACKING AND PLAYING GAME SON THE COMPUTER. TOMORROW I BETTER GO OUT. MOST OF MY FRIENDS LEFT HERE. OTHERS WILL LEAVE IN THE NEXT WEEK OR SO.
I SERIOUSLY AM THINKING OF MOVING INTO A SENIOR CENTER WHEN I GET HOME. AS ,MUCH AS I ALWAYS LOVED BEING ALONE IT SEEMS LIKE I JUST CAN’T HANDLE IT. THERE ARE JUST TOO MANY BILLS TO PAY ETC.
THERE OS SNONE I FEEL I CAN TALK TO. I DON’T WANT THEM TO KNOW HOW MISERABLE I AM. THAT’S WHY I COME HERE. . TO LET OUT MY FEELINGS ETC.
TO VENT
I WAS IN BED BUT COULDN’T FALL ASLEEP.
ANYONE GAVE NEUROPAATHY.
ANYONE FIND NAYTHING THAT HELPS?