I Feel Good, I Feel Bummed in meh...

As it turns out, I have had yet AY-NOTHER thing that will keep me from going on my trip to the Bahamas.

So that thing about my minivan. I have resigned to the fact that I will have to pay someone professionally to fix my car. I’m surrounded by “mechanics” but none will help me. Maybe just as well. But again, this runs into plane ticket money AND possibly rent money. I don’t need any more slow downs. Really I don’t. Then my son is going to homecoming with his girlfriend. In order to match her, he needs a white suit or something to compliment her. She is going to wear my prom dress, but it needs a bit of tailoring. That part we have under control. The suit thing, we don’t. Both of these are making me sad, aka, feel bummed.

On the feel good side of life, I went to church yesterday, dad’s new building. My niece brought the baby and it was my first time meeting her. I didn’t get to see or hold the other baby before she passed away. I wanted to see my niece the most. I hadn’t seen her in a long time. I missed her. I gave her a very good, me like hug. Also on hand was my baby brother who I saw first. He has had his shares of ups and downs and I think just completed a stint in a rehab. I love him so much. I just hugged him and hugged him. Baby sis was there with her daughters, some step sibs were there and all the usual aunties and hosts of cousins. We all sat around and talked and acted silly. My baby sister is in a Legal Studies program too and she was asking me something about ethics. I had no idea. My Intro to Law class was just that. An intro to topics and brief overview discussion. Didn’t have many assignments but I had lots of tests that I barely fared well on. (civil litigation quiz I got my first 100% on a test. LOL) We had a discussion about the siblings getting together for dinner about once a month. I’m down with the idea. Then as we were about to leave Dad says no, I’m not ready for you all to leave. It wasn’t like he was giving us any money. LOL but it was cool. We sat around and talked and it was good. Even my diva/selfie queen auntie was cool. I posted on FB that I loved my family and she was the first to respond that she loved me too…in emoticons, but still.

One other thing, I went to the cemetary to go to my grandmother’s grave and I don’t know where it is. I was looking it up online and still coudln’t find it. Hurt my feelings. I was walking around the graveyard apologizing for all the graves I was stepping on to find her and still didn’t find her. I just think that walking on graves is disrespectful. I always have. But I talked to her regardless. I miss her.

And that’s all I have for the moment.
Love yourself and each other…

Kindest regards,
Sister

Last updated September 21, 2015