My new job is a fucking joke. I’m just not happy there and don’t know if I’m even going back. I’m making less than half of what I made at my other job and am barely going to scrape by paying for everything. I’m in a worse spot now than I ever was. I didn’t sleep well last night and kept waking up to add up my hours and what my paycheck will be and it’s not going to be close of what I need to even pay the bare minimum of my bills! I’m still over my oil change, I can’t pay my cable bill or my car insurance so I’m officially drowning.
I just don’t know what to do. I honestly wish I could crawl in a hole and die. I’m so unhappy. My feet are swollen and burning because I have to wear a pair of shoes that are worn out and it’s hard to walk. I’ve managed to gain back some weight due to stress so that’s not helping either. My back is fucking killing me everyday because they work us like dogs and I’m now having chest pains. I don’t know if it’s just stress or something but I’m getting really concerned. I can’t go to the doctor because I can’t afford it.
Oh and Matt…ok. Well we sealed the deal Tuesday night. Then Wednesday night he text me and got mad because I didn’t wanna come over and suck him off so he said goodbye and that I was close to getting a date. Why the fuck would I want to go on a date with someone who would treat me like that? I knew going into it that he didn’t want a relationship and what not but for him to turn around and be that much of an asshole is mind-blowing and it makes me severely depressed. I didn’t hear from him last night and I probably won’t. He got what he wanted so he’s probably moved on to someone else. I’m just sad because I saw something good in him and I’ve never had anyone be as sweet to me as he was. Apparently it was all a fucking act.
I just feel like nothing is going right and I’m always going to be stuck in shitty spot because I live in a place where the wages are bogus and you just put up with it or somehow find the money to get the fuck up outta here.
Anyways, I’m gonna go shower and get some applications put in. I just need to figure something out. I’m really unhappy and don’t know what to do.
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