Anyways, my day started off with me super grumpy because my brother needed me to pick up his girlfriend and his kid so I didn’t get a nap. I was just trying to be by myself for awhile before my interview. I was super crabby and bitched at her about it when I picked her up. He just pisses me off because he doesn’t do shit for me at all unless I bug persistently and just doesn’t care about me or anything I have going on.
So I went to my interview and got hired. I knew I’d nail it and I’m pretty excited to start a new chapter. I knew the guy was going to hire me even before he mentioned it so it was nice. It’s more money, better atmosphere and my work load won’t be nearly as much as my last job. I know that my nerves are starting to set in but because I’ve worked up until this point, it won’t be that bad. I’m definitely ready to get started and meet everyone.
After talking to my boss yesterday, I left there knowing I didn’t want to go back. I just don’t feel like I belong there anymore and because she never did get back to me, I know that I have no choice but to move on and I know it’s what I want. I haven’t been happy there in a long time. I was just sick of dealing with the same shitty people, shitty attitudes and knowing I was never going to get a raise or feel like I was an appreciated employee. I know a lot of places are like this but I’m super angry that I wasted 20 months of my life for things to end up like they did.
I’m just glad that now I’m officially able to put it all behind me and move the fuck on. It’s just bullshit that all of this happened because of some bitch that couldn’t let shit go and be professional. I never gave 2 fucks that we used to be friends or any of the shit that went on between us a year ago, but she was bound and determined that she was gonna go out of her way to make sure to make things hard for me. I’m just so glad that I won’t have to deal with her anymore and I will do everything I can to not repeat the same mistakes by being too friendly with people outside of work. I do plan to make friends at my new job but I’m going to have better judgement and hopefully never go through something like this again. It’s just not fucking worth it.
I had someone I used to work with tell me that the GM is telling everyone he fired me. I’m pretty annoyed by this but the person who told me isn’t a creditable source and I take everything he said with a grain of salt, but I know the truth. I have written documentation stating that I quit so it’s his word against mine. I don’t think it’s anyone’s fucking business what happened and I really wish that place would fucking burn to the ground. All of them so-called “managers” need to grow the fuck up and keep drama and personal feelings out of shit! It’s sad that they are more wrapped up in drama and looking great but in my eyes they are all a bunch of shit talking pieces of shit that should realize the only reason they became managers is because the bosses needed babysitters to run their fucking restaurant!
It’s over now and I shouldn’t let it bother me because I don’t have to worry about any of them anymore or have to figure out how to deal with working under people who treated me so poorly! I’m glad to have gotten a break from the place and I never have to walk in that place EVER AGAIN! I’m happy to learn a new place and start making money again because I have a lot of bills I need to get paid. I’m happy that I’m going to be doing the same job somewhere else where I still get to make tips and do what I like to do.
I have my niece tonight and I don’t have to be there until 4:30 tomorrow. I’m just anxious to go and start doing stuff. I’m really anxious to start making money because I’m about broke. I have enough for about 2 more car payments but I have to pay my car insurance, health insurance, oil change and gym membership. I’m thankful to have found this job so quickly. I applied the first night I was sent home which was last Monday and got hired about a week or so later. I’m grateful that the hiring guy was super nice and it makes me feel really welcome.
That guy, Matt is still texting me. He’s just not getting the hint that I’m not interested in hanging out or having sex with him. I’m just so turned off by his appearance, him bringing up sex while I’m trying to get my job back and how he’s made no effort to hang out because he always has his kid. I have my niece tonight so I’m definitely not trying to see him. I just wish that men had more sense to not even bring up sex until after you’ve hung out with them a few times and don’t try to be too affectionate too soon. All of that just tells me they have really douchebaggy intentions and if I wanted a damn hookup, I’d already have one!
I feel so free. I am so glad that I don’t have to put up with that place or any of the bullshit anymore. I know that last Monday when I got sent home that I wouldn’t want to go back and the feeling just kept getting stronger everyday. Even yesterday when I was trying to get my job back, I knew it’s not what I wanted but I just hadn’t found something else so I wanted a solution. I was so glad when I got home and the guy called wanting to give me an interview. It was one of the first places I had applied at last Monday when I was sent home.
I can definitely feel my nerves but as much as I have social anxiety about starting something new, I went through plenty of anxiety everyday where I was because of that one bitch that didn’t like me. Even though I worked the opposite schedule of her, didn’t make eye contact and wouldn’t even clock in until there was another manager there, she still managed to run me off. At first I was super pissed about it but I know I was ready to leave. I haven’t been happy there in a long time and because of my anxiety about going some where else, I had convinced myself it wasn’t that bad but I just don’t think you should have to constantly worry about someone and do EVERYTHING you can to avoid them. There’s just no way I was going to be happy until I finally had to leave and at the end of the day, it is what I wanted.
I know that I’ve been wanting out of there for awhile. I also know that it would probably happen because of that girl. She just couldn’t separate personal feelings from professional and it was really affecting me a lot more than I ever led on with anyone. I never felt like I could talk to anyone there about it because anytime you said anything about someone, it would circulate super fast and then things would have just gotten worse for me. I honestly just got so tired of all the drama and bullshit that place was and just felt like if I didn’t get out of there soon, I never would.
I’ve been so stressed about not wanting to go back but trying to keep that as a back up plan in case I couldn’t find something else right away but because I can’t go back, it’s more incentive to get into this job and shine as brightly as possible. I’m definitely a tad nervous but it’s the same type of job I just came from so I doubt I’ll have too much trouble learning everything. I wonder what my schedule will be and if people will like me but everyone at my last job did with the exception of one so I’m sure I’ll be fine. I just want to get there and get the first few minutes over with so I can start to feel comfortable.
I know that I wanted to finish out the summer where I was and give myself time to adjust to the idea of something else, but I know by the end of summer I would have talked myself into staying and I know I would have regretted it, just like I did last winter. I was so tired of the bullshit and I started to realize it once the new GM came. That guy was just a complete asshole that loved to chase people away but then would bitch because he had to be there late getting stuff done. Um, okay well if you didn’t run people off you’d be able to leave right after closing you dumb fuck! You can’t expect to treat people like shit and think they’ll stay when there’s too many other jobs out here! Nobody has to stay there!
There’s going to be a couple that I’m going to truly miss and I wish them all the best but it was my time to exit. It was just getting harder and harder to go everyday and I just couldn’t see myself being there much longer. I was just so fucking over it and having to worry about that girl was getting emotionally exhausting. She was someone who abused her authority and loved knowing she could get away with treating people like shit, especially me. I’m sorry I was ever friends with her and was more sorry when I saw how much she let it affect things at work.
She’s a very cold, cruel, vindictive person because she knows I live on my own with no help from family or friends so it really bothers me that she picked that fight the other day knowing it would get me out the door. It’s just crazy that after a year, she was still just so concerned with wanting to get rid of me all over stupid, petty shit that didn’t even matter anymore. I can’t believe I was ever friends with someone who would have treated me like she did.
All I know is I’m glad this is all behind me and it’s not something I will have to worry about every day. I’m happy that I won’t ever have to worry about her again. She can go off and find other people to be her target and hopefully she’ll get some help. I’ve never known someone to hold a grudge like she did and I hope I never encounter that again. It was one of the worst things I could have ever dealt with, especially where it could affect my ability to pay my damn bills.
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