I’m ready now in who knows me better than myself?

Dear God,

I know we haven’t spoken to each other in over a month. I’ve been super depressed but know I’m finally doing a bit better. I had sex after 7 years or more with a guy who has now become a stalker. I do feel happy that that guy already wants to tell me he loves me. 

I’m so sad bc life hurts me so much. I’m really not better. I’m just saying this. I’m sad and I need your help.