Still trying in General musings

He still tries to contact me, texting to say I am on his mind everyday, and how he misses me, and that the car I paid for most of was delivered on this date 25 years ago. (On his other girlfriend’s birthday, I might note, not that he said it). The troubling thing about the on his mind thing, is that he is probably on my mind at least daily too. Not that I’d ever go back to him, but he was so much part of my life for most of my life, it’s inevitable that so much makes me think of him. And I have been dreaming of him too, lately. Always seems to happen this time of year. Temptation to write and say I don’t talk to you because I realized that you are a psychopath and nothing can change that, but as they said on “Killing Eve”, “never tell a psycho that they are a psycho, it makes them mad.” His disengenuous claims to not know why I don’t speak to him are infuriating. He TOLD me he was going to use me then dump me, and that he didn’t love me and he can’t grasp why I shut him out?