In knowing
I spoke to Joel today and it was refreshing. Reassuring. A nice way to hash out with someone who has experienced these things and know that I’m not crazy. Or particularly in dire straights. Or that anything is amiss at all.
He mentioned a theme that has recurred to me many times. Ground into my body. Feel my physical presence. Descend fully into embodiment. I take comfort in this. It is gentle, slow; it asks little and gives much.
I did mirror work right after my call with Joel. I didn’t know why. I felt a strong urge to do it. And I feel an inexplicable amount of energy buzzing through me even now, hours later. I know that I met many of my own parallel lives. Maybe even all of them. 13, there are. Including me. I saw my own face in many layers, including in the lineup of my Oversoul personalities. But also I saw many layers of myself. The one that perhaps I loved to see the most was golden. Her skin, the light tone, everything about her bathed in and aglow with a golden light. Angelic. Her chest seeming to emit a bright golden glow. It was so different from the other layers, which truthfully merely appeared as if the physicality was changing.
Throughout my mirror gazing today, I felt no uneasiness. I realized this quite abruptly as I stared at a foreign face in the mirror, and smiled an alien smile at myself. I felt a surge of warmth, affection, love, and excitement. I felt aglow with the love.
I asked my reflection, what do the silver eyes mean? Who sent me this? And immediately saw a face- a woman older but not elderly. Perhaps 50’s or 60’s. Every face I see in the mirror comes with a peculiar recognition. But I’m never sure where exactly from. It seems to be an inner recognition not from this life.
After I realized I could ask questions and receive answers in the mirror, I asked all sorts of things. To see all my oversoul identities. To confirm how many there were. Where the silver eyes came from. What they meant. If Philip was there(here). If I knew any of the faces that I was shown in my life. I seemed to receive some concrete answers-like every face of my Oversoul and the specific number of them- and some non committal affirmations or maybes. I recognized one face in particular as someone I have seen in my life before. I felt surprise in a self conscious way, but also… Not that surprised.
Mostly I was really interested in my internal feeling landscape- about just how much calmness, peace, warmth and love I felt while gazing in a mirror at these absolutely foreign alien images. I marveled at just how grounded and reasonably my mind handled the whole experience. I wondered if my core belief system has really changed that much in such a short time- to allow my mind the flexibility of accepting seeing something other than only a physical reflection in a mirror… And to refrain from reflexively assuming what what I saw means necessarily. To be yielding and open enough to let images through to be registered and not instantly attach to those images assumptions gleaned from those images.
It could also be the result of simply waiting. Time has a great deal to do with the minds ability to learn to piece together the perceptual inputs of another plane. Or layer of the onion. Don Juan spoke of this as a necessary part of dreaming practice; the patience an initiate must have to subject himself to inconceivable perceptions in order that the mind or energy body may have enough time to piece together how to organize these perceptions into conceivable images. The discipline and patience of the initiate cannot be dispensed with if this stage is ever to be traversed.
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