Once upon a time, my mother waited a whole long weekend to tell us that she got in a bad car accident because she didn’t want to ruin our weekend. I was so pissed.
Today, she didn’t plan on telling anyone that she was in urgent care until she needed a charger for her phone. I didn’t want anyone to worry. She said, which is exactly what I knew she was going to say.
I’m the only one who knows where she is right now. She was experiencing a lot of chest pain. I am confident that it is anxiety. Mental illness is fairly new to her, and I’m an expert via life experience. You’re going to be THAT guy. I said. My brother did it at least once a month. I did it one single time and I was so embarrassed.
While I visited her. She told me what she has been up to, and I explained why I think her chest pain is anxiety. I explained how, what she said she had been up, is extremely stressful for a person. She is going through a lot of changes, after her breakup. She is currently meeting with her financial planner to restructure her retirement plan. This weekend, her ex hit her with papers to sign from a separation lawyer. He suddenly shifted to “we are mortal enemies” mode because that is his level of emotional intelligence. She has been very graceful about it all, as per usual. But, she’s been going through everything all on her own. We can see where I get it from.
She’s also taking care of her own mother. She has power of attorney. I help out when I can. I take my grandmother shopping every other week. It’s her big day out of the house. I’m trying to take care of my own mother, but I need to know when she’s not okay and she’s never going to tell me.
The one thing I miss about her ex is this: I didn’t have to worry about her. He had her.
She will give me an update tomorrow. It was a shock to my system to see her like that at the hospital. I’m going to give her an ultimatum tomorrow. She doesn’t have to be alone, and in fact, it hurts us more to learn when she does suffer alone. JUST BURDEN US!
I spent the day at Thermea, a Nordic spa. My phone was in a locker. Watch, this will be when there is a family emergency. I thought to myself. I’m a manifester now. I’m still going to worry about her until I get an update. Just the idea of her laying in that bed alone, I can’t.
The spa day was nice. It was work related. I had a moment when I thought I was going to end up in the ER myself. They did a show in the sauna and it got way too hot. I almost passed out. It was a whole scene. I’m so embarrassed. Not to mention, I have bruises all over my back because I ended my massage on Sunday with hot cupping so that made me self conscious. At least I have a story to tell.
Anyway, I’m hoping for the best. Tomorrow, we are throwing an x-mas party for my kids and their families at work. I’m really looking forward to it. I’m off for winter break after this week. It can’t come fast enough.
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