Last night I dreamt of this general theme. I woke seeing a figure of a man sitting in lotus position backlit by a divine golden light. I woke to this image several times. I have a sense that that image is still there and it is simply in that second attention when I see it.
I dreamt of plumbing. Not the first time that I have dreamt of plumbing, but it was strange that there seemed to be me and one plumber guy who were concerned with the state of the plumbing and no one else. I was constantly preoccupied with the mess. I was amazed that it didn’t smell, but clearly there was poop chunks and sewage matter coming out of the broken pipes. While we (the plumber and I) placed buckets around and tried to fix the problem, everyone else meandered around quite content to ignore what was happening. One person even settled down in the room to sleep on the bedding which I had hastily picked up and stuffed against a window off the floor to keep out of the mess, and she complimented me on such a nice place to sleep. It was a sort of incomprehensible situation.
I experienced a reluctance to rise this morning, but still showered as the sun was rising. I love the magic of the rising sun. I sat to meditate. I came to the no-mind space quickly, but there was so much there. I experienced the distinct feeling that there is so much there for me to see. I had a deeper experience of going farther into that silent space, after deciding to simply see but not exactly pay attention. I went deeper in seeing. I felt that silence. I felt a deepening of my knowledge of what the Christ is… I saw a dark wisping fog and a glowing Earth- and a human being walking between them. Upright, not exactly unafraid, but accepting of the fact of his feelings and walking upright and powerfully anyways. He did not veer towards the Christed Mother Earth, neither did he pay any attention to any kind of threat from the blackness.- for looking at that blackness, I perceived a total power and predatory intent. He walked between them in perfect centeredness.
I perceived that even this is a balance for humanity to learn. That perhaps, this black naked aggression called Sorat’s violent entrance into this world is exactly what birthed the Christ principle. Sorat birthed, by being present in this realm of polarity, the light to his shadow.
Man, I am reminded of my own insight that perhaps the shadows aren’t created by the light, but that we imagine light in order to explain the shadows that we perceive. We first notice that there is a shadow in the shape of some object, and then notice that there is a light exactly opposing to the shadow.
I feel like my brain is breaking.
The Soratic being is a shadow which necessitated the Christ. That would certainly explain my own experience of terror, darkness, isolation, and then asking the question of where the light is which would necessarily cast such a shadow? And there it was, instantaneously, as if waiting for me to notice Him, was the Christ. I could not see or perceive the Christ at all until I asked. The Christ is head-to-head opposed to Sorat in that, as the Soratic influence is aggressive and violently imposed; I experienced it without asking, without permission seemingly, and without wanting to; the Christ can never impose, cannot make Himself known, cannot shine his light or be perceived in any way without an intent of Free Will from the perceiver. The intent to see is foremost in balancing out these forces. The intent to see is the power which allows me to de-polarize by belief that the Soratic mind world is the world. That the Soratic mind is merely a product of polarity in the exact same way that shadow and light are a product of polarity.
And that the Christ is equally a result of the intervention of Sorat as Sorat is the result of Christ’s intervention.
Yeah.
So I also sat there in mediation and asked my Cosmic Tower, Eugene, to take me to his world. I further asked to see his world. I felt such an incredible pressure on and around my head, right away. I felt as if I was simply too dense to go, but that something was pulling me with tremendous power. I felt too that I could see if I had the right attention, during this experience. I sensed that a part of me was experiencing that world and seeing the energy there, but that this mind was not able to go there.
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