It’s so difficult to remember what day something happened anymore. I constantly check the calendar. My sense of time has gone completely.
Uuhg. Duh. I just remembered I started that mushroom stuff 2 days ago.
My sight has been consistently doing this interesting jump- i will be seeing things from the customary perspective of the eyeballs. Then, instantly I’m seeing things from slightly higher and farther forward- as if I were suddenly shifted up and forward. Then, it jumps back to my eyeballs.
I have t really been able to notice if anything looks different, I’m too distracted by the sensation of seeing paradoxically from a viewpoint other than my eyeballs. But I have noticed that I see auras now, all the time, even when I don’t want to. I can’t go back to not seeing them. And, I see the darkness most of the time as well.
The darkness is such a difficult thing to describe. It’s not dark, for one, in the sense that dark things are difficult to see without light. Rather, it seems to be light, and it is very clear, very real- more real than physical light which cannot be looked at. But it appears like, the color charcoal. It ends up usually replacing the lighted surfaces while a dark light halo glows from behind an object, and what was bright or actually a source of light turns totally dark- not like a color at all but more like an absence of light.
In practical terms, it looks kind of like a black-and-white film negative. Only, there are colors. They just seem to be like… Free floating auric streams. Or free-floating mist that seems associated with an object - or not. The colors are not a quality of the objects surface, in other words.
When I see this, an object appears to be utterly absolute. There is nothing else which gives it perspective. There is no time, and no space. It appears without an environment. It appears to be eminating as a manifestation of the very background light, and in contrast only to ephemeral colored light-fog wisps.
When my focus breaks, it is gone. The environmental, time, space, perspective, all appears instantaneously and I no longer see the absolute object.
When I see the darkness in general, it appears like t.v. static. It doesn’t get in the way of viewing anything. More like, the static seems to make up all the space and be the thing that relays information to my eyeballs.
Also, I nearly always experience a tingling in my eye. Like a glowing pressure - or just a presence. It’s increasingly the space where I find myself observing from, which I notice to be different from the space within my head.
I used to focus on some kind of contrast - a tree against the sky - to see the darkness, and focus on it to see more of it. But I notice that when I do this now- as I focus on the darkness, I experience that perspective jump. My sight jumps up and out.
At any rate. I’ll be going to Sedona in a couple of days. I’m really looking forward to it.
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