Yesterday I had a first coaching call with T. He isn’t very good, and I probably won’t schedule another one.
I remember the first time I saw him (on a recording). My heart sank. I had that same preminatory feeling I had with the 2 or 3 other people who died within a fortnight.
I thought… How can I tell him?
There are certain things that I know without any source of where this knowledge comes from. I have suspicions about where it comes from. It is the same with animals and the land, for me. I feel an incomprehensible knowing and urge to do. It doesn’t make sense. Whenever I resist these, I deeply regret it later.
So I had this knowledge about T. It was a heavy knowledge. That he would die, and soon, if something specific didn’t change. I anguished over whether to tell him. How could I? He is on a public forum. And this type of thing is.. unnerving even for me. It could set off alarm, anxiety, fear, and make the premonition a self fulfilling prophecy.
I spoke to him the first time in public and felt terrified. Looking back, I really connect the terror to having this knowledge and not knowing what you do with it. He was so kind, and patient, and reassuring. He helped me with my terror without ever knowing what it was about.
After this I knew I had to do something for him. The thing is. I can’t do a dang thing without his informed consent. The only thing left, for me, was to pray to his Angel. So that’s what I did.
A few weeks ago I scheduled a one on one coaching call.
Yesterday, I came on the call, as prepared for one of these things as I could be (which is to say-not lol), and as the call opened, I absent-mindedly picked up my auto-balancing pendulum (BG-28).
I remember distinctly the thought form in my mind- im going to try to focus on my state of feelings right now so I’m not feeling so ill prepared.
I held the pendulum in search and my mind promptly went blank as I listened to T speak.
After awhile of absent minded listening, I put the pendulum down.
It’s only after the call, after some time goes by, that I realized the entire procedure to book the call, have a one-on-one discussion, and to have his attention, was to help T with his imbalance that was leading him to die too early.
Just his attention, that implicit openness and willingness to help me was the permission I needed to guide a healing energy to him.
The world is so strange. And amazing.
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