You guys. I applaud every woman in the world that deals with the bullshit I do. I seriously don’t know how to navigate co-parenting with a fucking idiot. Okay so yesterday he wanted her but around ‘noonish’ so I let him know we are packing up to have a lake day. I specifically tell him where we’ll be so he can come get her. He doesn’t show up. I also let him know that there’s no cell service where we were so I’d let him know when we get back to town. In the meantime, he messages me 7 times.
We don’t get back until late and then we are grilling for dinner. He blames me for not getting her because whoever his ride was didn’t want to come all the way to the lake to get her is my guess. Well he starts being mean so I let him know that from now on, exchanges will be at the Sheriff’s office for my safety. He messaged me last night after I’d went to bed and wanted her at 9. Well, I didn’t see the messages until almost 9 so I say how about 10. No response. Then he says how about 1:30. I ask is there anyway we could do sooner? He says to give him some time and to be patient.
I let him know that it’s his daughter asking and it’s not fair that he keeps putting her off. I also have shit to do today and I can’t go do it because there’s no sitter. I desperately wanted to go to work. I owe a fuck ton on a credit card and would like to get a head start on my fucking car payment. My boyfriend has already left for work and I don’t know when he’ll be back. I have since picked up the house, did dishes, and got a load of laundry done.
This thing where I struggle to find a way to make money on weekends is making me feel insane. Saturday and Sunday are the busiest fucking times and I hardly ever get to go. I don’t make shit during the week and my only chance to make anything is on the weekends.
Again, it’s extremely inconvenient that he doesn’t have a car and has to rely on others. He’s 41 years old and has had a child for almost 8 years. He’s had more than enough time to at least get a fucking car.
I’m seriously so fucking angry that I can’t hardly think straight. This has been the exact same situation for almost 8 years now. There’s no change in sight either. We have court this week and I know it’s going to read on paper for him to see her and he will still be in no way able to be consistent. I’m also sick of him bringing up 50/50 especially when he can’t show up now?! How the fuck does he think he’d be able to take care of her half the time? He doesn’t even pay CS consistently.
Tomorrow I have to get my letter ready and have my screenshots emailed over so I can have them printed out. I don’t know what all I should have printed because I don’t know what the judge would find relevant. I hate this no lawyer thing. I can’t even get legal advice.
Life just seems so hard right now. I try to be in a good mood but there’s always something to bring me down.

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