Trying to work on the more challenging aspects of myself in The Casey Diaries

Let me start out by saying that I have taken a long, long ass time to reach the point in my life where I am now pertaining to how I feel about myself inside and outside. I have also been using the Sol app to try to take a look at some of the not so great sides of my personality. I have had a small breakthrough after sending a message to my one friend and also, coming back from my last xannie bender I will ever experience. So, before I forget where I was going with this, I realized that when someone close to me tries to push me to their point of view (whether it be serious or otherwise) I have to fight myself to not be stubborn and not just dig in my heels and do what I want because I want. Maybe there is a reason they are trying to persuade me to see things or do things their way. It’s part of another one of my more challenging traits and that is my distant self is also very unemotional. Well then, why this time on my xannie black out did I seriously try to fight almost everyone in my life that has been giving me shit? Or I thought that they were stepping on toes. I also lost my new Moto phone, my new tablet and my bike helmet. Among other things. I said that was my last and I’m not playing.
Anyway, dealing with that app, it has this feature and it is non judgmental observation and people can post pictures and others can comment with non judgemental observations. When I would come across a negative judgement then I can try to see why I would think that way. I also got a swear word coloring book. Because people aren’t going to get me to act out of character or get the knee jerk emotional response they want.