The week went by pretty fast. Yesterday, however, was long and full of terrors. It’s one of the shortest days of the year, technically. Class is out for winter break. I have a long weekend. I just wanted it to be the weekend already.
Today was a nothing burger. I binged the rest of Sense8. I did go to the gym this morning and then grabbed some groceries but when I got home I just bummed around. I’ve been pretty lazy lately. I seem to only do things halfway. I just finished everything that I had started here in my apartment. My Christmas gifts are somewhat wrapped. My kitchen was an organized mess. My bedroom was even worse. I didn’t even sleep on sheets last night. It’s the CBD and THC oils that are turning me into my roommate, whom I miss.
I saw my childhood friend again when I was at the gym this morning. I pretended that he wasn’t there. I feel like a snob now. I kept looking over at him. He only does the strength-building machines. He has poor form but I assume that he knows something that I don’t. Maybe I’ll at least say hi next time I see him. That might be tomorrow if I go.
Between sets, at the gym, I planned out my birthday. During the day, my sister and I are going to take her kids to a museum which has a science gallery. I can’t wait to see their faces when they see and get to go on the sailship. Bev is coming and bringing her boys as well. In the evening I am having the girls over and we are going to order Indian food. Leanne doesn’t like Indian food so I will make a Thai Curry soup. I’m not sure what we will do for activities but I got time to think about it.
TMI Warning
I can feel my orgasms again. I unlocked a new one. One that makes my whole body spasm. I can have it as long as I want, as per usual. I’m desensitized to the other method, for now.
The way I used to feel before I ended up painting is how I am feeling. I’m going to write for my website tomorrow. Maybe I will get up the nerve to create content for my socials already… baby steps. My insecurities hit me yesterday about all of that. I gotta shake it off. It’s like a gnawing. Something is gnawing away at me inside. I feel a little out of touch with what I am passionate about. Ever since I started school.
I don’t have any Christmas plans. I’ll be spending this weekend alone. I’ll make myself a little dinner. My mother is hosting a brunch on Boxing Day. I didn’t book it off so I will just have to call in sick. I can’t even do that because my store will be closed so I will just have to send an e-mail to my supervisor. I feel dirty about it but… I haven’t used up my sick days yet. My mother also suggested that I buy myself a laptop on boxing day. I am really considering it.
I suppose I have time to think about some resolutions for 2024. I finally have time for a lot of things. I suppose I have a lot of time so let’s just say mental energy. It’s borrowed time but whatever. I noticed that mind is racing a lightyear a minute. I don’t pay attention it enough.
Blah! Time for bed.
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