Zzz in Current Events

I finally went to the gym. It was just to pick up my card. I used the self serve machine so I didn’t actually even go into the gym. There is a weird gate situation.

I tried to workout a bit at home yesterday but my energy ran out. I burned myself out running around window shopping again. I found a shelf at a thrift store with 5 drawers for dirt cheap. It matches the furniture in my room. I wanted one and this is perfect.

I’m so irrevocably tired after my shifts. I felt bad that I wasn’t good company when I took my grandmother shopping today. I took a nap and that just made it worse. Now my body is tired but my mind is too restless to let me sleep. I’m going to be even more tired after my shift tomorrow.

It’s the most dreaded day of the year. Inventory. Basically, we stand around and do both nothing while a third party counts everything. We just have to be available for customer support or answer any questions. We all stand in a long line in the middle of the store to ensure that nobody but customers is moving products. Come Wednesday that stress will be over. Then my team has so much to do.

I met Jerry today. He’s the guy on our team that does projects. He was on holiday. He looks like Ben Shapiro. He seems chill. I’ll be paired up with him soon enough as I inherit the second largest role for our team. His is the largest. I’m a little intimidated. I also decided that I will learn how to use all the trucks and lifts. It’s good resume material. Also, it makes me more valuable. I won’t make more than anyone but I won’t be as easy to let go. I’ll wait until I’m more comfortable.

I have to be asleep just after 8 pm to ensure that I have enough rest to still be tired after my shift but not feel like I’m dying. My alarm is set for 4:15, I could set it for 5 if I wanted… I don’t. I’ll have evening classes in a month yet.

Anyway, boring entry. I’ll take boring over my previous circumstances. Though, I still have that existential dread about the rug being pulled out from under me again.

I feel like I need to get my mindset back into something higher than all of this again. Blah