1 yr in just testing

Last Friday was officially my 1 yr anniversary at my job. Kinda went by quick!

Today my co workers got me cupcakes - it was nice that they remembered. But no raise. And I don't have the balls to ask.

The way I thought it worked at my job is that around your yearly anniversary you get an evaluation and you get told your raise. I didn't expect it to happen on the exact day - my job isn't really... on time with things... and so I wasn't really sure if they had noticed it was my anniversary.

But now I know that they know.... so when's the evaluation coming?

Even my associate director said I'd get 'something' but to not get too excited cause it won't be much. Anything is better than nothing so I don't care what it is - I just want to get it already.

But there's so much talk about enrollment being down [our school is year round but lots pull out for the summer] so I don't feel right bringing up a raise when there's talk about how tight our budget is.

I've never asked for a raise. I've gotten raises but never by me introducing the subject.

I'm just gonna wait. I mean, there's still people unemployed so I guess I should feel grateful to have a job - and one I actually like.

Someone asked about the exercising / diet thang...

um... I'm eating like shit. I'm probably eating 3000 cals a day - no lie. I've measured that when I'm off track and just eating whatever I want, it could easily get up to that much.

I'm a big fan of rice and fries and noodles and that stuff adds up. Plus the school has so much candy! I could easily eat 6 Halloween size pieces of candy a day.

I'm still on the treadmill - though my stamina hasn't improved much because I'm not on there enough days during the week to really build up much speed or time.

It's a shame cause I have a treadmill in my house but I'm still fat.

I paid my credit card off but I feel like I still find ways to not have any money. This pay period it's my new glasses. My new glasses [with the transition lenses, etc.] is $250. I've given myself $300 every 2 weeks to spend on myself and on groceries. Annnnd $250 of that went to glasses. Then I got a mani/pedi = $40 and I also went to the cat show and bought silly cat things and I'm pretty much tapped out.

I have no money until August 1st to buy healthy groceries. Will buys pizza and ice cream. I'm so serious. And so that's what I eat cause our cabinets are pretty bare right now.

I also budgeted out $300 towards out 'cruise fund' - which I put into our cruise fund. I could dip into that for groceries but I feel shitty doing that. Like I'll never get the cruise if I don't commit to portioning off a certain amount of money towards the cruise.

This is how my paycheck goes... roughly 35% goes to our joint account for my portion of : healthcare, electric, cable/internet & cruise 30% to my portion of the rent 10% to car insurance & gas 5% to cell And what's left goes to me for fun and food. The leftover 20%. What's 20% of your check, would you consider that enough for 2 weeks of whatever you want, like dinner out with friends, or clothes, and groceries?

Not much is left for me. Well actually enough is left for me but glasses are expensive and necessary and ate up my fun/food budget.

BTW Will also puts money into the joint account - I don't know how he portions out what he gives. He's not as organized as me - he just puts chunks in, depending on what he's paid that week.

SO things are tight this week and I'm kinda disappointed about it cause I thought paying off my credit card would solve all my issues.

BUT I really have needed glasses for years and now that my credit card is paid off I'm FINALLY getting them.

And truth be told, I was only aiming to spend $200 but then with anti glare, anti scratch, thinning the lenses and getting the transition type - it ended up being $250 and I said OK because this is what I really wanted. And I'm gonna have some rockin' glasses AND sunglasses ... in a week or 2.

I used walmart and they're slow but they're cheap and I do find glasses I like there so it's not like I'm settling for ugly glasses cause they're walmart glasses.

OK way off point I guess but anyway I've been broke a while and not able to buy healthier food.

Although I should have SO MUCH - that's also my issue. I don't have many healthy options but I should control my portions and I really haven't been.

And since I haven't been doing the school's biggest loser anymore I don't know where I am but I'm sure I'm up.

SO that's where I am diet wise - practically nowhere.

But every week I think I'm gonna do better. I have good intentions - annnd then I lose them.

So I suck there and ... I'm just.... staying there. I just don't know how to kick my ass into gear.

Sooooo... that's it.