I am a mess in Torridaussity Two
- Aug. 31, 2022, 6:21 p.m.
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I am a mess. You would think 8 months out and I could be normal again, but I am not sure I will ever be normal again. I am haunted by the dreams I had while I was in the coma on the vent. My emotions are all over the place. I am quick to get angry quick to cry. I have even more body issues than ever before because of scars and nerve damage and just my body changing while I slept. I am not back to work yet, but have been given October as the hopeful return date. I was excited at first but as the days go on and I am so tired and weak yet I wonder if I can do it. I am not sleeping right and just a mess. On top of all that I am dealing with a contractor who is lying and not doing the work and I have 2 months until my lease is up and I don’t even have flooring put in. And my car is on it’s last legs so I need a new one and even used ones are expensive and without having income for the last 8 months I am not sure I can get a loan. Something has to give. I can’t handle much more.
Dancing.Shadow ⋅ August 31, 2022
Hugs
Always Laughing Dancing.Shadow ⋅ August 31, 2022
thank you
Lady of the Bann ⋅ August 31, 2022
And Breathe. Try not to worry about all that stuff
Always Laughing Lady of the Bann ⋅ August 31, 2022
I shall definitely breathe it's about the only thing I do need to worry about lol.
colder ⋅ September 01, 2022
The last year or so has really put you through the wringer! I admire your strength in coming this far, and I hope things trend upward soon.
Always Laughing colder ⋅ September 01, 2022
Thank you
Lux Lunae ⋅ September 01, 2022
Do you remember quite a bit of your dreams while in the coma?
That is a lot to take on regarding the contractor, car, and return to work. It does sound so exhausting. It's so hard to have your body impacted in ways where you are unsure if the damage is irreversible.
Always Laughing Lux Lunae ⋅ September 01, 2022
Yes so many dreams and some were traumatic.
icedcoffeeplz ⋅ September 01, 2022
The used car market is starting to cool off, so hopefully prices come down soon. If you can survive covid and a coma, I'm pretty sure you can survive anything lol. You got this!
Always Laughing icedcoffeeplz ⋅ September 01, 2022
Awe thanks 😊
Small Town Girl ⋅ September 03, 2022
I am so sorry. My best childhood friends litter sister was in a medically induced coma for a time and it took her so, so, so long to recover and she wasn't out as long as you were. She too talks about how traumatic is was and still reels from it.
It's going to take a long time to bounce back. But I'm sure it is extremely fursting. You just want life to return to how it was.