Daycare stress. in Since OD is shutting down....

My daughter’s daycare shut down which sucks because even though I really didn’t plan on her going there again, it would have been the cheapest in town. I’ve tried to find care just Friday and Saturday evenings from 4-9 and people are wanting anywhere from $12-$15 an hour! Normal daycare hours are from 8am-5:30 if you are lucky to find one open that late.

I literally have no idea what to do because my Mom isn’t really into it and she’s either with one control freak or another that doesn’t want her coming over to sit with the kids so I’m thinking I’ll just end up taking my kid with me to try and make money because there’s no other option.

This is just insane how her Dad has just managed to get a free pass all along and he’s still out here playing the victim card. I am very lost because I want to work so bad but all these daycares want $150-$200 a week which means I wouldn’t be able to afford rent and I’m not trying to end up homeless.

It seems like the government just wants everyone to rely on them instead of being able to stand on their own. I am very angry at this whole set up. Even if I got a job making minimum wage, whatever help I get would be cut in half and if I got a job making at least $15/hr, I wouldn’t get help at all and still wouldn’t make enough to be okay at all. I’m more terrified of getting a job honestly. I also think it’s ridiculous that if you don’t work, you get all kinds of help but if you get even the shittiest job, they don’t want to help.

I’ve been sick this week with a cold so I’ve been staying home and sleeping while my kid is at school. I had an appointment Monday at 3 but had to reschedule because there’s no one to get my kid from the bus. I have next week to get some stuff done and then Christmas break for 2 weeks which I’m looking forward to because I have some stuff planned for my kid and I to do.

There may not be school tomorrow because we are supposed to get 2-4 inches of snow tonight so I’ll check the website before I wake her up.

I am seriously so tired of worrying about having a babysitter that part of me just doesn’t even care anymore. I spend so much time stressing about it that I have to just shut it off before I lose my fucking mind.

It’s also hard because I don’t trust anyone with my kid. We live in a time where I don’t think you can ever be too careful. Ugh, I just wish I had any Mom’s that just stayed home with their kids that wouldn’t be super greedy and could help me out sometimes. More later.