i hate it before i do it, but love it after in my challenge

i get myself pumped before i work out. i have to work myself up to do it, though its slowly becoming the equivalent of taking a shower or washing dishes. sometimes i just don't want to do it. but after wards i'm always glad i did. its so weird. i've cut down to about 125-150 mg of test c a week. i'm looking at adding glucosamine to help keep joint pain from happening. which seems to be the case after every leg day. mostly knees and ankles get mad at me whenever i walk up any stairs. just aches not actual pain, no big deal. finally starting to notice mid section change. i just have to keep pushing myself and know it going to be worth it. i will be happy with myself in the future. plus i've done the work, i've put myself through the pain, why stop now? i should get something for it.