8 month measurements in Weight Loss Surgery
- Aug. 27, 2021, 2:09 p.m.
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Yes I’m actually doing it LOL
HW 295 - Jan 3 264# - April 232#s - May 227#s - Jun 221#s - Aug 214#s - Total #s Loss: 81#s
Chest — 50 in ------- 45 in ------- 45 in ------- 44 in ------ 41 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 9
Waist — 54 in ------- 45 in ------- 45 in ------- 44 in ------ 43 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 11
Hips ---- 55 in ------- 2.5 in ------- 52.5 in ----- 51 in ------ 51 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 4
Thigh — 32 in ------- 30 in ------- 30 in ------- 28 in ----- 27 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 4
Arms — 21 in -------- 18 in -------- 18 in ------- 18 in ------ 18 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 3
Neck — 18 in -------- 15 in -------- 15 in ------- 15 in ------ 15 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 3
Calf ----------------- 16 in -------- 16 -------- 16 in ------ 16 in ------ Total Inches Loss: 0
Total 34 inches!
Firstly - WHY WON’T MY CALVES SHRINK?????
OK now on to the appt…
So the doctor wasn’t mad - he’s never mad - He did say, again, that I fell short of whatever percentages I should be at.
The thing is my highest weight that I know of is 295, but when I first saw him I was 289.
So I think - since he wants me to lose 100lbs by my 1 yr surgiversary and he’s tallying that I should be 189 (from 289) by 12/21/22. But my person goal from my highest weight
is to be 195 (from 295) by 12/21/22. It’s a small difference of 6lbs but it’s a lot when you’re trying to lose it off your body!!
I’m gonna see him again right before thanksgiving - so as long as I’m 199 by the time I see him, I can reach his goal of 189 by the 1 year marker BUT if I only make it to 195 I’ll still be happy.
I think I can do that, if I let my bad spring/summer habits go!!! I’ve been eating SO BADLY. I’ve been eating BAD FOOD and I’ve been eating to MAX CAPACITY which is WROOOOOOOOOOOONG but I can’t stop myself. I don’t know what it’ll take for me to stop allowing myself bad food in large amounts.
My mind overpowers my arms and mouth everytime…
BUT I WILL SAY - it’s only when I go out. When I’m at home with my hard boiled eggs and nuts and protein shakes, I’m fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine. But let me go to someone else’s house or out to a restaurant, and I’m out of control!
I plan to fill myself with good food before I go to my parents for dinner tonight because I think the menu is burger and fries… and then of course there will be dessert - usually ice cream.
The doc did ask about Will as well and I said he was doing fine - cause I really don’t know how he’s doing. He got down to the 330’s at one point but he seems to be stuck at 350 right now. And since he was usually only 110lbs more than me, he really should be in the 320’s by now - or even less cause usually men lose faster than women.
The last time I was in his truck we cleared out all his bad snacks so hopefully he isn’t eating cookies during his 12 hour shifts but really I don’t see what he does. And we do have tons of yogurt and broth from when we were both on the liquid diet before vacation but I don’t think he’s gotten back on the liquid diet band wagon this week.
I don’t want him to fail but I can’t nag him either because he absolutely hates anyone telling him what to do or pointing out flaws and I’m trying to avoid any knock down drag out fights that will make me want to divorce him .... again....
So I don’t know how to encourage him without nagging. I can be an example for him but with opposite schedules we hardly see each other so I’m not really an example for him. He doesn’t see me doing well cause he doesn’t see me much at all.
I guess I gotta flat out ask him what he wants from me. I have a feeling he’ll tell me and then be annoyed when I do what he told me to do to keep him accountable cause he doesn’t want anyone tracking his eating or making suggestions of any kind to him.
It would be easy for me to be like, oh well, if he’s gonna fail - let him fail - but I don’t want him to fail. I want him to be happy!
I’m MUCH happier with 80lbs gone.
I don’t cringe when I look at myself anymore.
I don’t self loath so much.
The anxiety of how I look to other people is way down. I feel like I’m blending in with the pack, instead of being the largest person in every room.
It’s not so much vanity, like I want to be pretty - it’s just not having that feeling of sticking out like a sore thumb - not being “normal” - being different in a bad way that was a part of my thoughts 24/7 for many many many years. All that is really taking a back seat nowadays. I’m thinner than I’ve been in at least 15 years. And I want that for Will. I want him to feel confident. I want him to be healthy.
I’ve wanted him to join me on this journey since day one and I feel like I’m leaving him behind and I feel bad but I also don’t want to go backwards and join him…
I feel like I don’t want to celebrate my success unless he is successful too. I’m gonna hit 100lbs lost this year - it’s a big deal! And I don’t want to celebrate it without him.
Last updated August 27, 2021
ninakir88 ⋅ August 27, 2021
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