Some days you're hungrier than others in Weight Loss Surgery

That’s my mantra when attempting to forgive myself for the grilled cheese, pasta and cereal I ate last night.

I was just a carbaholic and I regret it now.

I don’t know where I am weight wise. My period is coming so I expect an increase in weight from all of that but the increase in appetite is just gonna make it worse.

It was one day.

I also haven’t exercised with my trainer - she’s on vaca. I should do things on my own but I don’t.

I KNOW that a bad week is not a bad YEAR etc. and I’m not gonna gain 60lbs back overnight but I certainly gain faster than I lose so I gotta reign it in.

I think my over eating was part physical and part mental. I don’t know why I couldn’t say no to the carb monster last night. I just wanted what I wanted and I wanted it from the beginning of the day.

You ever just have a day where you WANT BREAD.

And I resisted going to D&D and getting a bagel on the way to work and I resisted joining the office when they ordered subs and then I got home, was alone, and ate every piece of carb in sight! And I don’t know if I shoulda just had the damn bagel for breakfast or not. Would that have squashed my craving or just been the dam breaking where then I had a sub for lunch AND the grilled cheese, pasta, and cereal for dinner?

Just another way of showing that this surgery is not magic.

It doesn’t remove the cravings in your head/body. And it doesn’t remove the disordered way of thinking about food where you “can’t” have this or that and you need to starve or restrict to lose weight. I still battle weekly, if not daily, with not going overboard with food.

But still in the end I don’t think I’d be down almost 60lbs without the surgery so I am still grateful.