Choices. in Since OD is shutting down....

My daughter completed her first full week at school. She got sent home with a note a couple of days ago that she had thrown a toy and was kicking other kids but I talked to her and didn’t have any issues yesterday. I’m thinking she was just tired because she’s never bad unless she’s getting sleepy. I told her that she’s got to be nice to her friends and she agreed so hopefully we won’t have any more problems.

I’m still trying to figure out scheduling so that I don’t have to sign back up for the whole daycare fiasco. I get childcare assistance but with that, you have a certificate that’s good for a year so if you lose your job, decide to move, or anything happens you are still on the hook to pay the co-pay until your certificate runs out and I’m just praying that I don’t have to do that.

I have a job interview on Monday and if I get it, I plan to work until school lets out and then do Doordash through the Summer for extra money and be able to actually have fun and take my kid to do stuff. I want to have a Summer where we get to be free and just enjoy life and then start working again once she goes back to school.

We put our beloved dog down on Wednesday. I’m not going to really talk about it because I’m still pretty wrecked and have crying spells several times a day but it was his time to go. He was nearly blind, couldn’t hear, had a mass on his side, his hips and teeth were bad and just overall not in good health. I am to pick up his ashes tomorrow by noon and I know the tears are going to come all over again.

Anyways, it’s just crazy as as adult you should have choices but you really don’t like you think you will when you’re young. Especially as a single parent. I want to just work while my daughter is in school and not have her in a daycare. There has just been so many fucking problems and even if I put her in a new daycare, there’s going to be issues. I’ve spent thousands of dollars paying for childcare even with a co-pay and replacing all her things that they just can’t keep track of. I’m still pissed that she got head lice and they took zero accountability and how much money I spent to finally get of it!

So that girl that’s watched my daughter a handful of times decided to try and sell clothes that I gave her AGAIN! I commented on her post and mentioned it and by the time I sent the screenshots to my Mom and my friend, she fucking deleted her post! What a fucking pile of shit! Then everyone wonders why the fuck I don’t have much to do with anyone and don’t consider anyone a friend!!

I am probably going to my parents house for awhile tomorrow to help make sure everything is packed and what not. They can move some of their stuff in on Sunday which I’ll help with and then they’ll probably get the keys on Tuesday at their closing. I am so glad this is finally happening after all this time. I’m hoping my Mom will be here next weekend because I’d kinda like to go out and do something.

I’m glad that my daughter likes school and I can base my job choices around her schedule. I just so want to be done with the whole daycare thing because it provided me with a great deal of stress and now that I’ve been free of it and had a chance to think, I’m going to do what’s in my power to never have to deal with it again.