Suck It Ups. in Current Events

I have such a severe case of the I don’t wannas. It’s been months since I’ve gotten to sleep in or just lay in bed for hours before getting up. I’m aching for that. My niece goes back to school this week. I might have that opportunity in a few days. That’s all I want. Toni and I are looking for an apartment for the end of April. I miss my bed. I’ve been sleeping on a couch in my sister’s basement since October where the playroom is and my sister does not respect anyone’s sleep except her own and her kids, of course. My niece does not use her inside voice when she plays in the morning. I cringe just thinking about it. She was able to go back to school months ago but my sister and her husband are participating in the con-19 LARP. I didn’t want my niece to be forced to wear a mask so I was okay with their decision not that I weighed in. I only weighed in on the vaccine which fell on dead ears. I’ll do anything to protect my children except research what doctors put in them.

I had my ultrasound yesterday. It’s a gender-neutral potato head! On my thyroid. She spent longer in one spot and it was a little sensitive so I’m convinced she found something. I’ll know in a few days. I have a canker on my tongue at the back of the throat or something also. I suspect that I got it from the mask at work. It’s too soon to challenge wearing that. I’ll have to fight to keep my pH levels in check.

I did get my battery changed in my car. I was wanting to do it myself but Bev came with the right tools. Sort of. There is a bracket situation and only her hands could fit so she ended up doing the part I was fighting with. One day I’ll be a real boy and go buy my own tools. So far so good, I don’t have to stress too hard about my car for now.

My life is so boring at the moment. I’m getting some FOMO when I see people still travelling on Insta. Also whenever I try to feel good about getting hired and having the opportunity to finally move on with my life I end up feeling some existential dread. The last time I had momentum con-19 came along and pulled the rug. Then I randomly remember that we are at war and in the middle of a communist takeover so that sucks the air out of any hope and joy. Quebec is talking about vaccine passports now. They are populists in Canada who mostly just deal with politics at a provincial level because they want to preserve their own culture. Their political parties are still bought out by globalist commies though. Oh, we have sexual assault happening in our COVID camps already. The hospital was so dead while I was there for my ultrasound. Felt like I was alone in there.

Anyway, it’s my second in-store shift today. I have the I don’t wannas and as my mother would say take a shot of suck it ups. So I should get on with it. ta