26 lb down from WLS on 12/21- 47 lbs down from HW in Weight Loss Surgery

295 HW 274 SW 248 CW 180 GW

OMG I am in the 240’s. I searched my PB and I haven’t been this weight since 2017!!!!!! And what’s insane is that I don’t see is as much as you would think someone would see an almost 50lb weight loss!

And I’m not being moody or anything, I DEF see I have lost weight and my clothes aren’t tight anymore (still not falling off either though) but - I dunno - when I was in the 290’s thinking about how drastic a 50lb weight loss would be… it doesn’t feel the way I thought it would.

Maybe at 100lbs?

I can’t believe I’m even speaking about an 100 lb weight loss as if that is really possible because before this surgery it definitely was NOT possible but now WITH the surgery it’s totally possible!

I’m also waiting for this boost of energy that I feel skinny people have but I think that will come with the weather because sunlight and warm weather absolutely brings my joy and cold winter weather steals it. Covid hasn’t helped, but like I said - I’m making the most of this year to make up for last year so whatever.

I know part of it is because my clothes are close to being to big for me, so even the skinniest person wouldn’t look like the skinniest person in a muu muu, you know.

I actually bought 3 size 18/20 items. My top is smaller than my bottom half and earlier this month I had retired my size 26 pants and deemed myself a size 24 pants. All my pants are stretchy so the 24’s are still fitting fine. But my 24 tops are starting to hang.

I only noticed yesterday that in my regular size 24 top I couldn’t see my belly poking out anymore. I really was round like an orange and my stomach was no wear near flat so in any shirt I wore you saw my belly poking out ahead like a pregnant woman. That wasn’t happening yesterday. And my v neck part of the shirt was so wide you could see my bra strap.

No one has told Emma (6 yr old niece) about my surgery but I feel like she noticed my body is different because she kept patting my abdomen, which isn’t protruding out like a pregnant belly anymore.

I like my clothes being loose but I don’t want to look sloppy - I may have to rummage through my clothes for some smaller sizes.

ANYWAY a while ago I bought 2 shirts and 1 dress from Torrid that were 18/20 and I tried the shirts one - I was too lazy to try the dress. And 1 of the 2 shirts fit! Like I could wear it today if I wanted! The other one DID fit as well but was snug so I’m gonna wait on breaking that out.

And as for the dress I figure I’ll try that out another time.

I wish that girl I used to exercise with would do it.

Maybe 2 years ago I used to go to the gym with a girl who was bigger than me. I don’t know if you all would remember. She has hip issues and such bad vision that she can’t drive so I was always carting us to the gym.

Anyway, I told her before I got surgery that I was considering it. I guess wondering if she wanted to do it too and she said no because she can’t control her appetite and she was afraid she’d eat too much after surgery and stretch her stomach back out.

And it’s not Impossible. It Does Happen to Some People but I feel like you’ve got to work REALLY HARD at stuffing yourself to the point of right before vommitting on a regular basis to get there.

And then after surgery when I dropped like 10lbs in a week, I did share with her how easy the weight was coming off and how even though my mind WANTS to eat more, your body physically won’t let you and she still didn’t seem like she was interested. And that’s fine.

Even though I still talk to her now I don’t talk about my weight loss. Being obese and trying to not be obese is a very sensitive subject and I don’t want to brag or be a bully.

I just know that she’s unhappy and lonely (she hasn’t had a boyfriend in like 20 years) and with me having so much success I really want that for her too but I can’t drag her to the hospital. you know?

And I just feel like, for the most part the weight is coming off really easy. I haven’t even exercised and I don’t feel like I’m depriving myself of food. I AM watching my carbs but I’m not eliminating them from my diet.

AND now that the weight is coming off I don’t feel like IF I had ice cream or a cookie or even if I gained 5lbs back that it would be the END of all my success. I’m really getting comfortable with everything and I feel like it would be great for her. But maybe if she sees me in person it will get the wheels turning in her mind. I’m sure I’ll see her this summer because she asked me to meet with her all Last Summer.

Anyway, I’m very happy to be in the 240’s.

At my parents house dinner wasn’t bad this time. I had a salad (my first salad in 2 months!), roasted veggies and a veggie sausage pattie. They did have rice as well but I didn’t take any. The dinner might sound weird but my sis made steak, and the sides were salad, rice, and roasted veggies. So I took the sides and made a veggie sausage.

I put my food on a smaller plate. I dunno what you would call it. You know in a dinner set they have the big dinner plates and then maybe the smaller plate is a dessert plate. So I used the smaller plate.

I finished my salad first (sriracha was my dressing). I don’t like many salad dressings cause I don’t really like vinegar. I LOVE honey mustard and would put that on a salad if I had the choice but they didn’t have it. I ate almost all the veggies and half the sausage.

I didn’t feel watched this time. I ate as much as I could but I didn’t force myself to eat more to join them.

But I was FULL the rest of the night.

Of course they had dessert of cake and cookies and ice cream. They always have so many choices. And everything DID look GOOD. But I was still TOO FULL to imagine another bite even though I would have loved to taste it.

We played hide and seek - which I don’t love - but I found it easier to squish myself into spots to hide.

OH

Will.... is struggling a bit.

I know I bitched at him when I thought he ate a pancake but he’s been good since. But for some reason he has gone from 355 to 360 and he’s a little worried. He started out at 403 I believe so getting to 360 is still good for him. He’s noticing his clothes loser but he doesn’t know why he gained.

I told him, I’ve seen him drink 3 protein shakes and have 1 burger patty in one day for a few days, and that’s it. That may be too little for him. Starving yourself leads to starvation mode in your body where you hold on to fat. Or maybe he needs to switch it up from beef. Maybe more chicken, turkey, and fish?

I don’t think he’s cheating cause usually he outs himself to me when he does - like the pancake thing.

I told him to start tracking his food, which is what I told him 2 weeks ago. I told him to look up what calorie requirements for his stage are and stick to it with protein being the main form of food in his diet.

So he may start using an app to track everything.

Last updated February 26, 2021