The ever looming depression monster in Just A Day In The Life

It’s that time of the month! When I start feeling like an absolute crazy person! Hormones! Gotta love em! I hate being this emotionally fragile.

I am having a rough morning… Definitely first world problems but still leaving me feeling rough. It started with me waking up and not seeming to be able to drag myself out of bed. When I finally did I was late and didn’t have time for breakfast, couldn’t order my coffee and breakfast because I am STILL missing my debit card and therefore I can’t use my app to order!

FUCK YOU KEVIN FOR TAKING ME ON THAT CURSED FUCKING TRIP WHERE I LOST BOTH MY ID AND DEBIT CARD.
INSERT SCREAMING HERE

Then I couldn’t find parking at work. When I finally got in and opened my email the first thing I see is a rejection email from the graduate school that was my first choice…

Insert Continued Screaming

At least the second email was a negative covid-19 test result but I was about 1000% sure I didn’t have it so it’s no surprise.

MAJOR SIGH

I just wanna go back to bed… I don’t have the energy for this bullshit today. It’s probably partially the lingering depression that always seems to be looming over my head but I just don’t feel like existing right now. I often wish I could just pause my existence for a while. Sleeping doesn’t really do it for me since I am plagued with nightmares MOST nights… I might just let myself wallow today.

That’s all I have for today.

TTYL,
Elle