I'm not sure how much more I can take in My life....I can't make this shit up!
- Jan. 11, 2021, 8:49 a.m.
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I’m really not. My mother has had a silent heart attack, she’s in the hospital and only my father can visit her.
Friday night we went to Orlando to spend the weekend at Universal. We had a good time, even yesterday before coming home, we knew my mother had gone to the hospital and she was adamant that we not leave earlier than planned. On the way home Brian asked me to drive because he was tired. I said sure, but I was sleepy too and he needed to keep me awake. Of course he kept fucking falling asleep during the drive, which pissed me off. When we got home he goes into the bathroom, then comes out and says he’s going to his parents. WTF? Like you just practically slept the whole way home, there’s a bunch of shit to unpack and clean, my mother’s in the hospital, and you’re going to your parents!? I didn’t say anything and he left. He thought nothing was wrong until he called me on his way home and I barely said two words. I finally told him how I felt and he’s like “i’m sorry. i’m an ass.” Yeah, Yeah you are. So he was walking around like a beat dog last night and this morning. Honestly I don’t care. He hurt me deep. He’s supposed to be my rock and he left me when I needed him most.
Even right now I feel helpless and alone. My father went to work this morning (instead of the hospital), Brian is at work (which, yeah, we’re not married so his employer isn’t going to let him take time off for an in-law), and Cam’s in the Florida Room doing his school work. I’m supposed to be working but I’m struggling to focus. I find myself silently crying over everything. I feel like it’s all on my shoulders and I can’t do a fucking thing about it.
My mother just texted me that she’s going in for them to put the scope in her leg up to her heart to see if she needs stents, and it kills me that she’s in the hospital alone. No one is there for her.
I really do not know how much more I can take.
Deleted user ⋅ January 11, 2021
I'm so sorry.