I feel another depressing entry coming on and I don't want to even start.
It's nothing super bad.
It's just that .. I WANT things. And I'm good and don't buy them cause of the goddamn credit card that Will is watching that I pay off and then never touch the credit card again because interest is the devil.
I want a treadmill so bad. Like most of my weight loss endeavors - I've hitched my wagon to that one star and it's going to be months and months before I can pay of my credit card and then months and months of saving up for the cruise and then months and months after that to get the treadmill.
I already asked sears about their payment plans and there are none - unless you open up a sears credit card.
My mom is on me about not making enough money - Will is on me about too much debt - and I'm trying - but I'm not trying.
I should get a part time job - but the only job that will take me from 4pm - 8pm maybe a place like CVS or Walgreens [cause they're open late] but they require you work weekends. And though my weekends are wide open, I'd be so unhappy working 7 days a week and never seeing Will. And I mean NEVER seeing Will.
So what do I want more - Will time, a cruise or a treadmill.
It's depressing to have to choose.
And that's about as far down the rabbit hole as I'd like to go tonight.
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