Gut punch in Weight Loss Surgery

Emma said I’m giant. Taking about my size.

I know she’s an innocent child. And I completely rolled with it. Not at all letting her know anything was wrong.

She didn’t mean to insult me. She lives to play hide And seek. And i don’t cause there’s not many places a person my size can hide. And it’s hard getting up And down off the floor when attempting to hide.

And so she said she knows i don’t like to play hide And seek cause im giant. And she wasn’t taking tall…

Im trying not to run with this feeling. I could use this experience as a reason to just spiral out of control. Cause it hurt.

I don’t know what I need.

I feel like a need a moment. A pause in my life. For just everything to stop. Time to stop.

But of course it won’t.

And in hanging all my hopes on getting this surgery to be a normal human being but it’s not set in stone. And it’s taking So Long.

I just feel so disgusting. And it’s all my fault.

Last updated December 20, 2020