i have always had a strange relationship with youtube. i’m addicted to it. i spend about 4 hours on it each day and it has actually been worse years before. in total, i spend about 5 days on the app per month, and in a year i accumulate about 60 days of youtube watch time. it was an absolutely horrifying discovery.
i had tried to get rid of the addiction. i tried limiting it with an app blocker, but later on i would find myself disabling the restrictions i set! and then i feel bad. and when i fee this way all bad things follow. i had made excuses not to delete youtube on my phone; “i’d use it only for educational purposes” “i’ll use only at times when i really need it” but who am i kidding? i know myself, i’ve gone through the same loop myriad of times. i am the only one who can change my life. it’s the little choices i create that makes up the future me.
in a year, what would i regret not doing today? 60 days on youtube per year, what could have i done in those 2 months only if i hadn’t let myself resign to short-term happiness and satisfaction? delete the app!!! just delete it! block it! eradicate! burn! take it away from sight!!!!!!!! it is a distraction. the demerits outweigh the merits! do not let a single app destroy your future. watching productivity videos doesn’t make u fruitful. it is your action that leads to change!!!
i have dreams. and i don’t want my future to be delayed any further because of procrastination. oh, self…
tomorrow, i will change my life. for just 21 days, let us refrain ourselves from the addicting world of youtube. care for yourself. do not let these things hinder you from solidifying your vision.
i guess that is all for tonight.
til the next one,
littledumpling
August 24, 2020
9:25 pm
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