Down in Torridaussity Two

I am feeling down today. I shouldn't be, but I am pretty sure this guy isn't interested in me anymore and well in general I am okay with it because I am pretty sure he wasn't the one, but it was nice to think about being able to date and have some romance. I have initiated all the contact since the date minus 2 calls from him and yes it has only been a week, but prior to the date he texted a lot and sent messages like hi pretty how are you etc. and since the date nothing like that. The last few texts I sent got one or two word answers and he hasn't bothered to contact me the last two days at all. I wanted to see if he would write to me or call me first because I think I deserve not to have to do all the work. He has taken is profile off of ok cupid where we met and I don't think it's because of our one date. I have a feeling maybe he met someone else and that is fine. But have the decency to tell me that I mean he did already ask me out for that second date. I don't know my brother says I read too much into things, but I say if a guy really likes me and wants to see me they will make an effort to contact me. I think maybe I am just better off single this way I don't have to go through the highs and lows that come with dating, I like feeling at peace better. I am also down because my grandfather has been bleeding out through his colon a lot recently and they aren't sure why, so please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. I am financially strapped for money. I have to keep putting things on my credit card to make ends meet. I am so tired of worrying about paying my bills. I very rarely spend money on myself and I don't live an extravagant life style above my means. I just can't seem to stay afloat. I know everyone has problems and there are a lot of people worse off than me, I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading and take care.