Good Day in First entry

Today is a pretty good day. We woke up, went to church. After we got home my wife came over. We talked a little bit. It wasn’t completely pleasant, but we got through it. Tomorrow is my son’s birthday and she said her boyfriend bought my son a birthday present. Naturally I didn’t respond very well. I told her that they need to return it. If she gives that to him I will yell my son EXACTLY who it is from. I do not want him involved in my kids lives in any way. I explained that is exactly why I have a lawyer. I am protecting my kids from being influenced with this guy that has a history of drug and violent convictions. She can go down the path of destruction, but I will not allow my kids to do it period. Now she says they are just friends. It actually made me laugh. I said you already told me you are in love with him. You don’t have to lie. We both know the truth. I also asked her to step in my shoes and think of everything she has done to me. If I did that to her what actions would she have taken? I asked her if she was where I’m at, how would she respond. Tell me one action that I have taken that is completely unreasonable. I want her to see what she is doing. I want her to understand where this path goes. What have I done to get her here. Help me to understand. The fact is through June we were good or so I thought. I realized something yesterday. She sent me a picture of her breast in a bra. I remember thinking that wasn’t typical for her, but it was cool. I figured she was trying to spice things up. Now I don’t believe that picture was for me at all. It wasn’t a fun realization because at that point we were doing really good or so I thought. As silly as it sounds, I’m still hold hope God will change her heart. I think it will be a miracle, but it’s possible. Until that day comes, I continue to moved forward with protecting my children.

I also asked her to stop invoking her dad that just passed in this. Exploiting his death is wrong and disgusting. He wouldn’t be in support of this whole thing at all. We spoke about it in May. He told me if she was leaving because of this guy he would tell her, just as he did in 2008. She is making a huge mistake. I was reviewing our text messages. He wanted to talk to her about it so much. If he were here today, I truly believe he would have told me that he is proud of how I have loved her in every step of this. He would agree that this is not the daughter that he knows and that he thinks she is making a huge mistake. He would have told me no matter what happens, I have to protect the kids and I would always be his family. Those are the words he said and May. I remember when I first married her he sat me down and we talked. It made me laugh when he said I have to warn you my daughter is a bitch. It wasn’t condescending as it sounds, honestly she had some serious anger issues I discovered. I remember promising him I would always love her and I would take care of her. I haven’t been perfect, but o would be comfortable sitting in front of him and reviewing our nearly 16 years together. I still love her today. I still believe we could make it. Right now, I realize this is something she feels she has to do to prove she can make it on her own or whatever she’s trying to prove. The only reason o say it like that is essentially she is leaving me to replace me with a guy that just got out of prison in November. That’s not exact on her own, but right now, that’s not my concern. It’s true but useless information